Update 2
I just wanted to take a few minutes to share some of the things that I’ve learned over the last several weeks. I fully intend to come back and continue the scripture blog here at some point but I’m barely hanging on as it is and between just trying to not self-destruct and wanting to finish my MBA program so that I don’t waste $5,000 I just can’t bring myself to focus on anything else right now. It’s been almost 3 months since my life flipped upside down and I feel like I’ve lived 8 lifetimes. I can’t even remember my life before this. I was so close to peace, just weeks away from breathing easier for the first time in my life and now I’ll never have it, not in this life anyway. I was so close and it’s like the weight of the next 50 years are crushing me and it’s exhausting. I have lived a difficult, painful, and violent life and this is by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me, and I think this is going to be my life until I die, and that is a very daunting and exhausting p...