Share through Blogs
I was pulling up lds.org to get started on tonight's reading, and the front and center topic on the main page was "Sharing the Gospel Online." I thought, "oh how interesting, maybe there's a new button for my blog that will link back to the church's website or something." Then on the next page there were several options, and I of course picked the "Share through blogs" because of what I'm doing here. The little blurb says that one way to share the gospel is to blog about your everyday life and that your example of living a righteous life will show people what it means to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I thought "ok cool, I'm doing that, both on here and on my single mom blog." But then it says "be sure to promote your blog. Ask friends and family to follow you and share your blog." That's where my heart sank. I write these everyday, but I don't do it because I think people are interested in what I have to say, I do it for me. I do it because it makes me accountable to really give 100% of my attention to my scripture study. I do it so that I can review different resources and have a place to put it all together. I do it so that I can talk out my ideas, and have sort of a jotting place for my thoughts as they come together to big lessons and realizations.
In fact, I'm not really interested in other people reading this blog, but that's for more selfish reasons. I feel like I'm very infantile spiritually, I have a lot to learn, I just started growing over the last few years. I feel like if other people read what I have to say that I would look stupid because I don't know as much about the gospel as they do. I'm afraid that I would expand on something and they would think "oh yeah I learned that in primary," which I know shouldn't even be an issue, but it's one of the reasons I feel like this is my sacred little treasure. This is my place where I can come and work out my thoughts without fear of judgment. Another reason why I have been hesitant to put this out there really is because I have kind of a different view of things, I'm a little bit more, how should I put this, unique perspective and I don't sound nice when I say things, I'm a little bit more blunt than some people are used to and I'm afraid to say something that makes the church look bad. I don't want to be too open and offend someone who then doesn't like the church because of something stupid I said, because I put my foot in my mouth pretty frequently and I don't want the church to suffer because I don't know how to act.
But the church put this request out there, and if the Lord really wants me to share it, then I will, I'll be scared but I will do what I'm told. So maybe I'll pray about it and see what He wants me to do, then I'll make a decision.
In fact, I'm not really interested in other people reading this blog, but that's for more selfish reasons. I feel like I'm very infantile spiritually, I have a lot to learn, I just started growing over the last few years. I feel like if other people read what I have to say that I would look stupid because I don't know as much about the gospel as they do. I'm afraid that I would expand on something and they would think "oh yeah I learned that in primary," which I know shouldn't even be an issue, but it's one of the reasons I feel like this is my sacred little treasure. This is my place where I can come and work out my thoughts without fear of judgment. Another reason why I have been hesitant to put this out there really is because I have kind of a different view of things, I'm a little bit more, how should I put this, unique perspective and I don't sound nice when I say things, I'm a little bit more blunt than some people are used to and I'm afraid to say something that makes the church look bad. I don't want to be too open and offend someone who then doesn't like the church because of something stupid I said, because I put my foot in my mouth pretty frequently and I don't want the church to suffer because I don't know how to act.
But the church put this request out there, and if the Lord really wants me to share it, then I will, I'll be scared but I will do what I'm told. So maybe I'll pray about it and see what He wants me to do, then I'll make a decision.
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