D&C 112:1-10

I'm feel like I'm getting too bogged down in the sections, I know that it would be perfect to go through verse by verse, but at this point I think that I'm just going to go through what I think pertinent to me today and move on. 

112:3 - The Lord again freely forgives sins, "inasmuch as thou hast abased thyself thou shalt be exalted; therefore, all thy sins are forgiven thee." Jesus definitely helped me through my anger issues today, I've been on the edge most of the day, he is very patient and kind and merciful to me. 

112:4 - "Let thy heart be of good cheer before my face; and thou shalt bear record of my name." I think that this speaks to the relationship between a good attitude and the influence you can have on people to desire the gospel. If you think about it, a person who is really unpleasant to be around is not going to entice people to be like they are. Most people don't look at someone who is desperately unhappy and think "I want what they have." This is me for sure, I'm usually pretty high strung, irritable, and hostile most of the time, and I know that that's not helpful to the cause of missionary work. It's hard enough to just endure the presence of a person who is that unhappy that it's exceptionally unlikely that they will want to befriend you enough to find out about the gospel. 

112:10 - "Be thou humble; and the Lord thy God shall lead thee by the hand, and give thee answer to thy prayers." One of the reasons that Jesus was able to help me out of my anger cycle was because I asked him to. Honestly, I wanted to scream at everyone today at work "you know what?! Screw you guys, I quit," and walk out and never look back. But I prayed for the help to be obedient, and I mostly meant it. This is new for me, I've "wanted" to be obedient before, but only about things that I wanted to be obedient with. Before, I would probably have been angry all night and told everyone about it and had a tantrum. Now, don't get me wrong, I did have a meltdown tonight but I'm ok now, so that's a step forward. I still feel like a spoiled brat who had a tantrum, but I don't feel angry anymore and I can think more level headed now and am seeking the Lord's will to know what to do, if anything. The IM says, "President Thomas B. Marsh's pride led to his eventual apostasy. His excommunication is a poignant reminder that the Lord has counseled his Saints to be humble. 'Pride was the weakness of Thomas B. Marsh. If he had been humble, he would not have fallen. He began by defying the righteous decisions of the High Council and the First Presidency, in a trivial case in which his wife was interested, and he ended by )opposing) the Church.' Thomas B. Marsh eventually repented and was rebaptized... Orson Hyde, who had imbibed of the spirit of speculation, freely acknowledged his faults and asked for forgiveness. Parley P. Pratt, too, at one time was overcome by the evil spirit, of strife, but he says, 'I went to Brother Joseph Smith in tears, and with a broken heart and contrite spirit, confessed wherein I had erred. He frankly forgave me, prayed for me, blessed me.' Others did not repent. Luke S. Johnson, Lyman E. Johnson, and John F. Boynton were rejected and disfellowshipped by the Church on the 3rd of September, 1837, less than a month and a half after this Revelation was given."