MIA - Costa Rica update

So I'm leaving on vacation this coming Tuesday to go to Costa Rica for 3 weeks. I've been kind of freaking out about it so I've been spending all of my free time preparing for that. Plus work has been pretty hectic, so between the two I haven't made scripture study a priority. I've noticed that I'm definitely more anxious and more easily sucked into the drama than I usually am when I am studying everyday. I've definitely been able to make the connection between scripture study and my sense of peace.

I've been pretty nervous about my trip, which is unlike me but I think its because I'm going alone with my kids. They are older but I'm still a single white woman traveling alone in a third world country with two kids. I'm sure we'll be fine and I feel fine about going. We dont party, we don't drive at night, we're not reckless, so I feel pretty confident, but maybe just a heightened level of mothers anxiety at work here.

I'm also nervous that I'll spend too much money. I have already blown through any type of budget in flights and hotels and rental car, even though I got a screaming deal on everything. I've been saving money for this trip for months and I have several thousand dollars saved up, I'm just nervous that I'll come home and regret spending so much money.

But I think I'm mostly worried about the opposite problem. I'm mostly afraid that I'll be so cheap that I will decline super awesome adventures that would have been once in a life time and I'll regret not doing that. I guess I have a really hard time with a happy medium, but looking back, I dont have any regrets on my other trips, none that I could have done anything about anyway.

Lastly, I know that when I get home from this trip, I'll have to go back to dealing with my real life. I've spent months planning this trip and I'd so much rather plan exotic vacations than pay bills or clean the house or work out, etc. But when I get back it's going to be "no more vacation distractions, back to real life" and I'm not looking forward to that.

Well, that felt good getting it all out there like that and making some connections that I hadn't before. So basically, I'll be back in about a month, thanks for listening and helping me work through some issues.